Bahut time tak mujhe lagta raha ki ek woman hone ka matlab hai…
sabki care karna.
Subah jaldi uthna—
isliye nahi kyunki meri neend poori ho gayi thi,
balki isliye kyunki sabko meri zarurat thi.
Breakfast banana,
ghar sambhalna,
work deadlines complete karna,
family ki needs dekhna,
sabko time dena…
Aur in sabke beech,
maine khud se poochna hi chhod diya—
“Main kaisi hoon?”
Mera body mujhe bahut time se signals de raha tha.
Kabhi bina zyada kaam ke hi thakan hoti thi.
Kabhi mood achanak low ho jaata tha.
Periods ke discomfort ko main ignore kar deti thi.
Busy hone ki wajah se meals skip kar deti thi.
Exercise ko har baar kal par postpone kar deti thi.
Aur jab mera body kehta tha,
“Mujhe thoda rest chahiye…”
Main kehti thi—
“Abhi nahi… bahut kaam hai.”
Main sabki care karte-karte
itni busy ho gayi thi ki
main apni care karna hi bhool gayi.
Ek din shaam ko ghar aakar
main bahut exhausted thi.
Sabko kuch na kuch chahiye tha.
Kisi ko dinner chahiye tha,
kisi ko meri help,
kisi ko mera time.
Aur maine hamesha ki tarah smile kar diya.
Lekin us raat, jab main akeli mirror ke saamne khadi hui,
toh mujhe apne chehre par sirf thakan nahi dikhi.
Mujhe laga…
“Ye woman sabka itna khayal rakhti hai…
lekin iska khayal kaun rakhta hai?”
Aur phir mujhe realize hua—
Mera body mujhse perfection nahi maang raha tha.
Na koi strict diet.
Na perfect routine.
Na har din workout.
Bas… thoda attention.
Jab thakoon, toh rest karun.
Jab bhookh lage, toh properly khaun.
Apne periods ko ignore na karun.
Apni hormonal aur emotional health ko seriously loon.
Exercise isliye karun kyunki mujhe achha feel hota hai,
na ki apne body ko punish karne ke liye.
Aur kabhi-kabhi bina guilt ke keh sakun—
“Aaj mujhe khud ke liye time chahiye.”
Us din maine khud se ek promise kiya—
Main apne loved ones ki care karungi,
lekin ab khud ko sabse last mein nahi rakhungi.
Kyunki maine samjha…
Khud ko priority dena selfish nahi hai.
Ye self-respect hai.
Aur shayad sabse zaroori baat—
Mera bhi ek body hai.
Meri bhi needs hain.
Aur mujhe bhi apni body ki sunni chahiye. 🤍